Walk While Reading

Make You Cry Music

He use to only cry while watching Field of Dreams. The scene where his dead father comes alive on the baseball diamond to play catch with his son, got him every time. He’s seen the movie half a dozen times, he knows the scene’s coming, he hears the ‘make you cry music’ through the speakers. Even knowing all of this, he’s crying like he’s just lost his cat. 
Over the last year, it’s not just that baseball movie, that makes him cry. He has cried so much, over so many things, in his car, walking down the side walk, at work, on his couch while eating cheerios. That a strange sense of calm has come over him with regards to the act of crying. He’s no longer scared of letting go. He can almost will it to happen. He’s a grown man of some thirty or so years, that can cry whenever he wants. 
I’m sure this is not good, or what some would classify as not normal. That there’s an issue somewhere, hiding out between his eyes. This man doesn’t really care what others think. He’s done trying to classify or explain or hide who he is. What he’s become. If he’s crying after hearing Bon Iver’s Holocene, so be it. If tears are forming in his eyes, as John Nash in A Beautiful Mind tells the woman who didn’t give up on him. That he loves her and he’s the man he is today because of her, that’s fine too. And if he cries because somedays he feels alone, and scared, well thats more then okay. Because we all feel that way sometimes, and crying about it tells the mind that the body knows it hurts, and it’s okay.